I never get to see my horse as often as I like. It is a 40 minute drive to see him (without traffic). There are weekends I can’t make it up there. It’s expensive to board him at a stable that might be closer. Excuses, excuses.
I know he needs a loving, human companion who can dedicate more time, but I’m selfish and don’t want to give him up.
I know that I can’t take advantage of my parent’s care forever. They’re wonderful to keep him and tend to him since I can’t.
I feel if I sell him or lease him out, I’ll lose the “horse” part of my identity entirely.
I love bringing friends and family out to see him. I love showing him off. I love looking forward to seeing him each weekend.
I know something has to give.
Cleaning out his stall is usually the highlight of my week. Even if my back aches afterward.
What horse will I take thousands of pictures of if he’s no longer around? Unthinkable!
He’s lacked the training, experience and benefits of a “real” horse owner. And he’s not getting any younger.
I have no idea what to do. Except sneak away this weekend and escape to the barn.